Pondering my image again today..... And, this is not about my sagging jowls and other sagging parts. This is about my image as a strong, confident woman. A woman who can handle things, who is resilient and savvy. This is ultimately the image that I want to maintain and it is becoming increasingly difficult to do so. As the dawn of the decade of my forties fades behind me, more and more health things keep cropping up...and it is bugging the hell out of me. To top it all off, due to my myriad of health issues, I have been having what everyone believes is Anxiety attacks. Well, wouldn't you be anxious too if your heart started racing for no reason at all (no reason that I could see anyway...) So, I was given ANOTHER pill to manage that...a pill which I REFUSE to take (for now anyway). I plan on trying meditation, yoga and (yeah!) more blogging first. This is on top of diabetes medication (not injected insulin yet, thank god),and cholesterol lowering medication. More pills, means more steps closer to old age.
I sat down at the dinner table with my mom the other day and we both got out our respective pill cases to do our Ingest Before Meals ritual. She nudged me and smirked in a way that implied that we belonged to some sort of Sisterhood of Crones or something. "Look at us old ladies, eh" she said, chuckling softly. I was not amused.I gave her the cut eye. We have mammogram appointments on the same day next week. We are bonding over the degeneration or possible degeneration of our bodies. Isn't that too sweet?
How does all this pill taking fit into my plans to be a Hot Cougar, who very soon will be sporting some sexy guy in his early thirties on her arm? How will I fit my gargantuan Pill Case into the cute little clutch that I see myself carrying on our Saturday night dates? I will have to perform the Injest Before Meals ritual quietly and secretly in the bathroom of the trendy club we are sure to be at.
*sigh* What I have to do to maintain my image......
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